November 16, 2016


i know it was just two days ago that i was talking about how sawyer hates me, but here's the truth. i wouldn't say she hates me, per se. she just has a hierarchy of preference. our farmer takes up spaces one, two, and three - and i gladly take space four. except for last night when i was #1. i was so very happy to be the top dog in her the middle of the night.

it was about 1:30 am when i heard crying. sawyer's room is right next to ours and sometimes she cries for a second because she's lost her binkie, so i waited a beat. the crying kept coming and then she just kept saying, "mama, mama, mama..." over and over again.

i knew something was wrong.

i got out of bed and opened her door and she was standing there whimpering but relieved to see me.

i bent down to pick her up and quickly realized (stop reading if you don't like puke) she had puke down the front of her and there was a trail of it to her bed.

now...this is my first instance dealing with puke. in four years i've changed the nastiest death diapers of hell - but never have i dealt with puke. and guess what...aside from it happening in the middle of the night...puke isn't that bad.

so as i was saying - my poor gal had puked...everywhere (except her bed - good girl!). i grabbed some fresh jammies, a roll of paper towels, and some wet wipes. i started cleaning my gal up and got her tucked back into bed. five minutes later i had the trail cleaned up as well - pretty decently, might i add, thanks to wet wipes. wet wipes are everything.

my sweet gal looked at me and said, "thank you, mama." i asked if she wanted a drink of water and then turned off her light. i sat next to her on her bed for the next 20 minutes while she hugged my arm and i rubbed her back with my other.

it was one of those moments where it's just the very very very best to be a mom. yes, it was the middle of the night. yes, my hands smelled like puke. but my gal - she needed me and wanted me and preferred me. she was genuinely thankful i was there for her...and i wanted to stay there rubbing her back all night - but i was tired, so that trumped sweetness. let's be realistic here.

so while i'm sure you were pretty concerned that sawyer kind of hates me...she totally doesn't hate me. last night...i think she loved me. like...really really loved me.


  1. Awww, this is so sweet!

  2. Aww! When they are sick, it goes right thru your heart! I hope she's feeling better and I'm glad you had one of those sweet moments only a mama can understand!!

  3. Just the sweetest! She's lucky to have a mom like you. :)

  4. Pretty much the only time Henry prefers me is when he is sick and not feeling well. And even then, he still prefers my husband 20% of the time so even that is hit or miss. But I know if he is cuddling with me or asking for me, he is probably sick or getting sick.

    Hope she is feeling better today!

  5. See, she really does love you! :) You don't mind puke?! Wow, you're amazing, I cannot stand puke, but really it's just when it's the chunky kind and they get it all over the bed, waaahhh

  6. Aw! How precious...and kind of gross. Haha.

    I think puke is really the biggest thing that cures "baby fever" for me. Yuck.

  7. Aww poor baby. Glad she knows the truth though; she has an awesome mama!!

  8. So precious! This is totally what mommyhood is all about. Good thing you don't have carpet because I can tell you that is not how things would go!!

    Shelly||The Queen in Between

  9. Awe yes these are the moments that make mommyhood what it is - smelling like vomit and being the one person the littles want to pat their back and calm their tears.

  10. Aaaaaw, very sweet. You should be so pleased that she sometimes puts you on the back burner, it just means she is so confident and secure with your love. When they are sick there is nothing in the world like their mama! I hope she is feeling better.

    xx, Elise

  11. Hahaha!! Poor, poor sweet baby!! Despite puke, it was a really beautiful moment :)


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